anatomy

my soul is
a wildfire
consuming
burning
destroying

my heart is
a wanderer
incessantly
searching for the fullness
it felt when it
was younger

my eyes are
constellations
lost in the starry dreams
i once held inside me

my arms are
crossbows
attempting to shoot
love
into the souls
of every human
within reach

my lips are
raindrops
that try to fill
the void
left by
pain
and pain
and pain

my hands are broken
remnants of every
tear
scream
heart
and dream
i tried to hold
onto

 

-dedh // april 5, 2017

april 2 and 3

the light fades
from your eyes
i can see childhood
ebbing away from your soul
but don’t let go
cling tight
cling tight
cling tight
for the love you have now
is lifeblood
in an otherwise
dreary world
-dedh // april 2, 2017

 

you told me i was worthy
of all the love in the world
you told me i deserved the sky
you told me to follow my heart
for surely my heart knows best
you told me i had all i needed inside me
you lied to me

i’m a mess
some say i shouldn’t say that
but it’s my truth
i’m a mess
and if i’m not
i should be
i’m not a perfect picture of happiness
but a snapshot of depravity
i’m a failure
i’m unworthy
i’m ugly
i’m useless
i’m nothing

until Him

when Light touched my life
oh, how things changed

when weakness drew me to Him
He reached down and gave me strength
to stand again
when i lay before Him
worthless and pointless
He gave grace and love and
stretched out His hand to me
when i say i am a mess
it’s because without Him
i’m a mess
and i need Someone to clean me up
I’m a mess
and i can rejoice because if i wasn’t
tangled and broken
there wouldn’t be any reason
to need Him.
-dedh // april 3

it’s national poetry month so i’m writing 30 poems and here is the first one… which i should have posted a few days ago

sleep calls again
the numbness
of dying to it all
is growing once more
my eyes close
i try in vain
to stay awake
every breath i take
is slow and weak
the world is tugging me
to sleep
to rest
to drift without a thought

to wander

aimlessly

and i follow

numbly

but i hear
a voice
a strong, calm voice
calling out to me

my eyelids stir
my mind turns again
i shake my sleeping limbs
and
hands lift me
from the realm of dreams

“please don’t let me
fall asleep,”
i whisper to Him. 

 

-dedh // April 1, 2017

an afternoon in five poems

smoke from the ground

echoes in the sky

austere wisps shroud the sun

and love burns away

like the world we know.

tall boots cradle calves

and ties encase necks

but we are falling apart at the seams.

minstrels’ voices fade

anxiety sets in

is hope lost like childhood

memories in the mind of a grown up?

pestered by a need for more

we’re never content

until we’ve lost it all.

 

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it’s an old house

over grown in vines and folly

try not to get lost

wind your way through

forgotten gardens

until you find the door.

footsteps

raise the dust

and it clings to the tip of your boot

don’t stop to brush it

away

but keep on searching

until you are

home.

 

******

 

don’t loom over me like that

your shadow makes me

nervous

like before I step

on stage

sit down

have tea

I don’t care for silence

 

******

 

twist and turn

curves of millions

a dance between two souls

take me away

and twist and turn

with the highway song.

trees looming overhead

like friendly giants

shadow the way.

follow the light

past the woods

eventually.

 

******

 

people aren’t mediocre

that’s impossible

everything they touch

leaves a mark

that’s a skill not many posses

and it’s inherent

in humanity

when a human

takes a breath

power and grace are exhaled

and oxygen inhaled.

humans are made

to change the world.

 

 

 

l a b y r i n t h 

when you look around 

this labyrinth 

do you see the walls

hemming you in

keeping you away 

from every dream 

that echoes inside you

do you see the leaves

keeping  you away from

 all your hopes and loves

or

do you see the high high walls

like an ancient bodyguard

keeping all the good inside 

and all the bad things out

do you see the golden green 

that flits into your heart

becoming itself

new dreams

new life

in the labyrinth?