i write the same
poem
over and over
a different pile
of half-wasted words
crumbling
at my feet and
until i find
the combination that
i crave
that broken jumble
of heartache
and salt water
is only
going
to grow
-dedh // april 4, 2017
april 2 and 3
April 4, 2017 By Leave a Comment
the light fades
from your eyes
i can see childhood
ebbing away from your soul
but don’t let go
cling tight
cling tight
cling tight
for the love you have now
is lifeblood
in an otherwise
dreary world
-dedh // april 2, 2017
you told me i was worthy
of all the love in the world
you told me i deserved the sky
you told me to follow my heart
for surely my heart knows best
you told me i had all i needed inside me
you lied to me
i’m a mess
some say i shouldn’t say that
but it’s my truth
i’m a mess
and if i’m not
i should be
i’m not a perfect picture of happiness
but a snapshot of depravity
i’m a failure
i’m unworthy
i’m ugly
i’m useless
i’m nothing
until Him
when Light touched my life
oh, how things changed
when weakness drew me to Him
He reached down and gave me strength
to stand again
when i lay before Him
worthless and pointless
He gave grace and love and
stretched out His hand to me
when i say i am a mess
it’s because without Him
i’m a mess
and i need Someone to clean me up
I’m a mess
and i can rejoice because if i wasn’t
tangled and broken
there wouldn’t be any reason
to need Him.
-dedh // april 3
it’s national poetry month so i’m writing 30 poems and here is the first one… which i should have posted a few days ago
April 4, 2017 By Leave a Comment
sleep calls again
the numbness
of dying to it all
is growing once more
my eyes close
i try in vain
to stay awake
every breath i take
is slow and weak
the world is tugging me
to sleep
to rest
to drift without a thought
to wander
aimlessly
and i follow
numbly
but i hear
a voice
a strong, calm voice
calling out to me
my eyelids stir
my mind turns again
i shake my sleeping limbs
and
hands lift me
from the realm of dreams
“please don’t let me
fall asleep,”
i whisper to Him.
-dedh // April 1, 2017
an afternoon in five poems
October 26, 2016 By Leave a Comment
smoke from the ground
echoes in the sky
austere wisps shroud the sun
and love burns away
like the world we know.
tall boots cradle calves
and ties encase necks
but we are falling apart at the seams.
minstrels’ voices fade
anxiety sets in
is hope lost like childhood
memories in the mind of a grown up?
pestered by a need for more
we’re never content
until we’ve lost it all.
it’s an old house
over grown in vines and folly
try not to get lost
wind your way through
forgotten gardens
until you find the door.
footsteps
raise the dust
and it clings to the tip of your boot
don’t stop to brush it
away
but keep on searching
until you are
home.
******
don’t loom over me like that
your shadow makes me
nervous
like before I step
on stage
sit down
have tea
I don’t care for silence
******
twist and turn
curves of millions
a dance between two souls
take me away
and twist and turn
with the highway song.
trees looming overhead
like friendly giants
shadow the way.
follow the light
past the woods
eventually.
******
people aren’t mediocre
that’s impossible
everything they touch
leaves a mark
that’s a skill not many posses
and it’s inherent
in humanity
when a human
takes a breath
power and grace are exhaled
and oxygen inhaled.
humans are made
to change the world.
pain // hope
March 27, 2016 By Leave a Comment
there was pain
that refused to leave
me alone.
it clung to my back
between my shoulder blades
and it aches
and bleeds
and hurts.
there was hope
that resisted
evacuation
and still it hides,
trembling,
in my rib cage
beside my heart
and it loves
and loves
and loves.
03. 24. 16
by dill